Life is all about facing the unknown.x If you had told me a year ago I would have two boys with special needs and that both my lovely boys would not be able to speak, I would not physically have been able to cope with the prospect. I have already lived the last 6 years of my life raising my gorgeous Conor and would not have expected that now Jack would join him on his Autism journey.
When I found out I was pregnant with baby Jack I was thrilled as I imagined Jack would help Hailey with Conor as they grew up and that they would all have each other. The realization that Jack has the same conditions as his brother and too can not speak has overwhelmed me and devastated me in equal measure. My heart has been broken so many times over the years that I never expected it to finally crumble as it did when I found out about my lovely Jack and again when I had to tell a bawling crying Hailey that her little best friend was not able to speak either like her other little brother.
I guess that is what life is really all about facing the unknown, not wanting to take that first step out there for fear of what may lie ahead but doing it anyway. I have faced a great many unknowns in my lifetime as a Mammy, faced them all with fear and somehow come out the other side, bruised but not broken.
I faced a huge fear recently by publicly putting down into words all that has been filling my mind for years and the response has helped to mend my broken heart. I never expected that one person may find my Blog, let alone that many that have, and the many more that write to me that most amazing words of encouragement, for all of that I am thankful. All I have ever wanted to do was to help people and I hope and I think I finally have found the way I can do it best.xx
Yesterday I nearly choked on a hot cup of tea when my lovely Jack’s little cute face popped up on one of my favorite family websites that I read everyday. I was asked to write a piece about Autism and my new Blog by the fab people at Family Friendly HQ, yet when I saw HIS lovely face on their fab website I was so overcome. A little boy who can’t talk is now in the homes of thousands of mammies and daddies all over the world .x The response to the piece from family, friends and special needs parents has been heart warming and uplifting and I am forever thankful.
I have heaps of work to do on my Blog and lots of new Series pieces will be coming up. Jack is in the final stages now of diagnosis so once all his paper work and appointments have gone through I will have a lot more time to dedicate to the blog once the upheaval has settled down and my little man starts to take his first steps into his new life with special needs.x
As always thank you ever so much for stopping by my tiny corner of the web.xx If you would like to read my post for Family Friendly HQ, you can find it here. xxx
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