A Visual Santa Letter

Autism Santa Letter

Free Printable Santa Letter for Christmas

 

With Christmas now just weeks away, many children are busy writing their letters to Santa.x In our house Hailey usually has the job of writing the letter on behalf of her brothers aswell, but this year I wanted to be more proactive and ensure Conor and Jack were also able to “write” their letters too. 

Conor and Jack are both unable to “write” by themselves just yet, but I didn’t want that to be a barrier to them both getting to send their own letters to Santa. So I have created A Visual Santa Letter for them both to send. I have included visuals within the “letter” so they can better understand what the letter is all about.  [Read more…]

Books with Special Needs Characters

Special Need Books [Read more…]

It is not your fault

It is not your fault It can be bittersweet sometimes watching the boys as they play happily on their own. Peeping through Conor’s bedroom door I watch as he happily throws his Angry Bird Teddies up, up, up in to the imagined sky I think he sees above his head. I find myself just then swallowing down a deep sorrowful pain I can feel rising in my chest that always seems to start in the pit of my stomach somehow. It feels sort of like a balloon expanding but pushing up, up, up into the sky waiting to break free just like Conor’s teddies but it is the most sorrowful and painful feeling I have ever experienced in my life. It comes and goes and can catch you off guard sometimes just like one of Conor’s “flying” Angry Bird teddies which  have been known to “ping” you on the head when you pass Conor’s bedroom if his door is open. His teddies much like that sorrowful feeling can catch you by surprize and steal the peace you thought you had in your heart.x

Jack just like his big brother Conor loves to play on his own, I know he loves me but for the most part he likes to be on his own, playing in his world, lining up his toy cars, listening to Bingo the Dog or Wheels on the Bus. Sometimes I think if I hear “The Wheels on the Bus go round and round” one more time my heart could burst with the pain I feel inside. Not because I can’t bare to listen to it the million times a day Jack has it on repeat but because I know that in some way on some level that is how Jack copes in our world. Having his songs on repeat all day long reminds me that just like me he is doing his best to cope, to live his “normal” in our world.x

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Face the fear and do it anyway

face the fear and do it anyway

Face the fear and do it anyway.x

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time to when I was young; somehow, back then things always seemed to turn out alright.x I remember being small and afraid of the dark, afraid of monsters under my bed, or unknown noises in the dark. Back then all it took was for my dad to leave the hall light on for me at night or my Mum to check under my bed, to give me the all clear so I knew I was safe. I remember that feeling of relief that everything was going to be alright. No matter what the problem was if Mum or Dad said it would be okay, then I knew it would be.x

I sometimes find myself wishing to be that young again; when that was all it took for me to know things would turn out alright in the end somehow. Over the last few months I have found myself struggling with the weight of the responsibility of what now rests on my shoulders, the reality of having two little boys who are unable to speak, who have Autism and SPD, Developmental Delay and Intellectual Disability, who rely solely on me to survive now and in the future. I think every parent feels that way from time to time but I feel it more acutely with Conor and Jack then I do with Hailey, as they rely on me so completely all of the time, it can be so breathtakingly overwhelming.x [Read more…]

We are back on the Autism Road

Back on the Autism Road

Jack is finding his way in our world.x

 

Starting Over

This week a new chapter in Jack’s short life has begun. A step in the right direction for him and us as a family but in another way it is sort of bittersweet. I am so glad for him that Conor’s amazing Resource Worker “Mary” is back in our lives and is here to help Jack just as she helped Conor starting out all those years ago yet it makes my heart so sort of feel heavy for a moment. I didn’t think we would ever be back here again but here we are.x  [Read more…]

What I learned this past year

Jack "helping" tidy the Christmas Tree last Christmas.x

Jack “helping” tidy the Christmas Tree last Christmas.x

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When dreams come true

Waiting for his voice

Sometimes when I look back to before I knew Conor had Special Needs I get a lump in my throat, my heart tightens a little and that almost hollow aching pain in my chest starts. I know it is heartbreak and a sort of “longing” that I feel, I don’t know how to explain it completely into words, but if you have ever felt lost or longing, wishful for a moment in your past to be your present again you will know that feeling all too well.  [Read more…]

Book Shelf

9780252080319I have been asked many times what books I have read that I have found most useful. Over the years I have read so many, that I can’t remember them all until I find myself reading a “new” book only to realize I had bought and read the same one many years ago lol!x

I am incredibly lucky as I have many lovely friends in the Special Needs Community who are always at hand to recommend brilliant books that are worth paying for and will be on your book shelf for years to come when you need them. I have decided to write this post for new parents of children diagnosed as having Autism or SPD in particular. As both my boys have Autism and SPD this post will focus on those topics for books but will also include some books that fall under the umbrella term “Special Needs”, so you may just find some good books for your own book shelf. [Read more…]

Clothing and the Weather

Autism Clothes Printable

For this week’s Friday Freebie I have created two sets of free downloads to cover the themes of Weather and Clothing.  Many children whether they have Special Needs or not can be quiet confused as to what is the most suitable clothing to wear depending on the weather outside.  [Read more…]

You will forget me

Special Needs Bonds

Conor and his best friend Hailey

I don’t always have the answer when I should, maybe it is because I am still learning, and always will be as my beautiful little people grow up. There is no “handbook” that tells you the right or the wrong answer to give when the difficult questions come. The questions tumble so easily out of Hailey’s mouth from time to time that I know I should be prepared for them each time, but every time I am caught off guard. I search in the darkness of my mind for the “right” answers, the least painful response to her “wonderings” about Conor and now about Jack. [Read more…]