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Love has no words

Hailey and baby Jack.x

Hailey and baby Jack.x

Love has no words

On the tough days when every thing has gone wrong I just want to hide away. Pull the covers up over my head and not come out until it all magically gets better. Being a Mammy means on those days you put the kettle on, pour another cup of courage and fight another day. Doubt and guilt follow me as often as night turns into day. I could be a better mammy, I could spend more time with each of my little ones,  I should be doing more therapy with the boys, I should be giving more attention to Hailey, I could be telling them more often I love them.

Conor looking out for Baby Jack

Conor looking out for Baby Jack

Hailey always helps that doubt, guilt and fear fade away. Watching Hailey kiss the top of Conor’s head this morning after he bumped it made be feel so at peace. I must be doing something right. I watched her as I stood quietly to the side as she bent down and gave Conor a soft kiss to the top of his head, rubbing his shoulders she said “It’s ok Bubba (her special name she calls Conor), all better now“. He looked back at her with a sad smile and my heart broke a little more. For all the self doubt I have as a mother to my three lovely little people it fades away when I see how happy they can make each other. [Read more…]